[Dohalim's voice is still soft, muffled as he buries his face in Gepard's neck. the thought of... simply putting aside his title, his responsibilities and duties, to be selfish for a moment as to indulge in a life he could have been if it weren't for the Crown Contest... it honestly unnerves him. for the last several years, it's all he's known, it's the only constant role. perhaps it's because he'd killed Tarnigen that he couldn't just give up on the lordship, that his death would be in vain if he just... ran away from the duty. from the start, he'd only accepted the lordship to live out a life his friend could not]
Is it truly alright? To simply forget my title for a moment of respite from its duties?
[there's a certain exhaustion in his voice not heard by anyone else before when he says those words, as if holding back on his emotions for so long. sure, Dohalim has had moments where he can relax in his own time, but his mind is constantly spinning when it comes to his rule. it's not like he can really turn himself off from being a lord so easily]
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[Dohalim's voice is still soft, muffled as he buries his face in Gepard's neck. the thought of... simply putting aside his title, his responsibilities and duties, to be selfish for a moment as to indulge in a life he could have been if it weren't for the Crown Contest... it honestly unnerves him. for the last several years, it's all he's known, it's the only constant role. perhaps it's because he'd killed Tarnigen that he couldn't just give up on the lordship, that his death would be in vain if he just... ran away from the duty. from the start, he'd only accepted the lordship to live out a life his friend could not]
Is it truly alright? To simply forget my title for a moment of respite from its duties?
[there's a certain exhaustion in his voice not heard by anyone else before when he says those words, as if holding back on his emotions for so long. sure, Dohalim has had moments where he can relax in his own time, but his mind is constantly spinning when it comes to his rule. it's not like he can really turn himself off from being a lord so easily]