It's selfish when he had the determination to win when I didn't. We all know I didn't even want to compete for the title.
[it's no secret among them that Dohalim would have preferred to stay on Lenegis, to pursue music and the arts instead of ruling over a realm. but the tone Gepard takes for just that moment is almost enough for Dohalim to recoil just a little, but with the captain pressed so close to him, it's virtually impossible for him to pull away at all.
but what he can do is hide his face from Gepard's view as he buries it against the crook of the blond's neck, sighing softly. he says he doesn't need to carry this weight, this guilt alone. but it's not right for him to rely on someone else to carry it with him. not when he alone was the one who committed the act and torn down a bright future. the roles should have been reversed, and not a day goes by that Dohalim thinks he should have just yielded to Tarnigen]
It is my burden to bear. If it buries me...
[this is probably the first time they've spoken about this since Dohalim had descended to Dahna; there was some unspoken agreement not to talk about it. but now that it's out in the open again... he should try to bury this conversation again, somehow. this isn't the time or place to have it]
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[it's no secret among them that Dohalim would have preferred to stay on Lenegis, to pursue music and the arts instead of ruling over a realm. but the tone Gepard takes for just that moment is almost enough for Dohalim to recoil just a little, but with the captain pressed so close to him, it's virtually impossible for him to pull away at all.
but what he can do is hide his face from Gepard's view as he buries it against the crook of the blond's neck, sighing softly. he says he doesn't need to carry this weight, this guilt alone. but it's not right for him to rely on someone else to carry it with him. not when he alone was the one who committed the act and torn down a bright future. the roles should have been reversed, and not a day goes by that Dohalim thinks he should have just yielded to Tarnigen]
It is my burden to bear. If it buries me...
[this is probably the first time they've spoken about this since Dohalim had descended to Dahna; there was some unspoken agreement not to talk about it. but now that it's out in the open again... he should try to bury this conversation again, somehow. this isn't the time or place to have it]